Monday, December 31, 2007

He is my demon master

He is my demon master, he is that little person that wakes up all the nasty things I have inside me. I just can’t stand to hate and want someone that much at the same time.
I met him during my first days at the new school, a skinny little guy, with a Ralph Macchio syndrome going on. He has tanned skin, black eyes and black hair. He has a cute body, but a horrible voice. Anyway he is the most bullied person in the whole school, he is pretty annoying, and very submissive someone you just want to humiliate to his bones. I was pretty shocked he was from my class but didn’t really care; he was kind to me at first he must have really thought we were going to end up being friends.
That was until I heard a lot of humiliating stories about him, how they broke all his stuff, played soccer with his schoolbag, throw him to puddles etc. so once I was drinking some juice in the bus and he asked me some, I dint thought it much but I just poured some of it over him. He asked why, but I just said that I liked to be soaked with juice, and that if he wanted some of mine he would have to let me pour things over him. So he accepted, I started with juice and water, every chance I got I just soaked him up. He seemed to enjoy it and so did I. I remember clearly poring juice over his head and shirt in the bus; I also remember throwing juice over him from the second floor at school. 
Then I came up with this rule “I’ll never give you anything unless you are humiliated" he accepted and that was pretty humiliating for starters. People in the bus started to notice the water pouring, so we made up we were in water fight. So I had to get water once in a while, we even took turns to pour water on each other. People really enjoyed seeing Obsidian get humiliated I poured water down his chest, back, head and shoes. Once he even got balloons to school to make water fight. For some reason I still don’t understand I felt sick and couldn’t play. I remember he got all the balloons and poured the water over him really slowly.
One time the entire bus was watching us pouring water on each other. And I made him sit, and made him bend over, so I could see his back, but I got the water bottle and poured the water inside the back of his pants, people loved it and shouted Obsidian lot of things, Obsidian wasn’t willing to receive all the insults so he did to me the same. I really enjoyed the little stream of water going from my lower back down and feel my underwear get slowly wet, the people shouting, the humiliation, it was great. After that I made him sit up straight, I got the front part of his pants waistband and poured cold water inside. People yelled a lot more, the I got mi hands over his belt and took it off, then got my hands over the fly and unzipped it I opened his pants as much as I could, I got a pretty great shot to a really cute and really tight pair of ridiculous mickey mouse briefs, the were white with mickey mouse faces all over them. I got the water poured almost all of what was left of the water over them. Obsidian kind of jumped a little bit I immediately held his pants opened and saw his briefs get soaked completely. After that I arrived home I and let him completely soaked in the bus.
That wasn’t the last time he got his underwear soaked that way, we had kind of a ritual now, I kept bringing water and he just got his belt off and opened his pants for me to pour it over his briefs. he rarely wanted to do it over my boxers something I regret, he said that with boxers on wasn’t fun, so I bought a pair of briefs like his and I got him to do it once or twice not very good. I wanted to be humiliated as I have humiliated him. But he just wouldn’t. Then it got a little bit heavier. He had a really old school uniform, and his gym shirt was all ripped over the shoulders. Once while pouring water over his chest I got my hands over his shoulders and ripped his gym shirt, it was really great seeing his chest that way. He sews it for the next morning and I had to beg him like for a month to let me rip his shirt completely. 
One day he brought another shirt to school and told him that I could destroy that one, I said that the fun was in hem having it on. On the bus I made him take his gym shirt off, and put the one he brought, on. I got really excited and ripped that shirt too fast so I really couldn’t enjoy it as much as I would have liked, anyway I made him stay with the ripped shirt all the way, and minutes before I arrived home made him swap shirts again... that cute chest,  a boy's one. I got to rip his shirt again... and made him beg like a dog… then I made him close his eyes, I licked his face and chest. In the end of the year he gave me his gym shirt as a present. I still have it in case he is willing to get humiliated like that again. Then we were at his house… we played bomber man on the dream cast. His sister played... she treated him pretty badly.
Than it was, what Obsidian called the lowest point; once we were arguing in the bus he started acting stupidly (as always) and bends over like he had done on the water incident. I told him that if he didn’t sit up right I will give him a wedgie, he didn’t know what that was, and so I just got my hands on his aquamarine tiny briefs and pulled them over as hard as I could. After that it was wedgie time every time, I really enjoyed it sometimes I just grab his undies and kept them pulled up during the whole time in the bus. Then I got to give him a really vicious wedgie and ripped his tiny gray briefs off. After that he said he had gone to low, it was a really hard wedgie and Begged to me to stop. He said he had toughed the bottom, but I kept humiliating him for a while more. Than he started acting like a dog, and obeyed all my commands he even gave himself wedgies and melvins, I love seeing giving himself some melvins he has great abs and the most cute briefs collection ever… once I got him to pee himself after gym class. Then he was my personal doll, he would stay still and I could do with him whatever I wanted, I gave him wedgies Melvins shirt locked him. I wanted to Keg him but he never let me.
He also asked me for help in an English text, I told him to humiliate himself; he kneeled down and kissed my feet, ha has also eaten garbage for food and told me humiliating stories about him. 
Now we hate each other with all our hearts, we have fought so many times, for some reason I have told him all my fetishes and that I’m bisexual. Now he thinks he has the power and doesn’t let to be humiliated that easy. He is still humiliated by everyone at school. Although he now has a bully "friend “that uses him to get access to his PS2. I wish I could make him my humiliation slave or make him my master. He is really annoying and brings out of me the worst things. When he is around I just lose my mind, and become the most despicable person ever. 
Pretty much of what I know about myself is kind of root in my philosophical, ideas, my religious ides, my love ideas, even my aesthetic ideas... and everything I find great..... But I’m freaked about my sexual ideas, I’ve been tortured my whole life with em, it’s beyond sad, it’s pathetic.

(16 days late)

Saturday, December 15, 2007

My only wish this Christmas

My only wish this Christmas is a radical change for me, good or bad, but for me, just a change... maybe a forced excuse to change... blindness, paralysis or lack of speech. I have to be really sick to wish something like that. But it could also be near death experience, win the lottery, having a step farther with his own children. Some close disaster, a runaway from home, a kidnapping, a beautiful girl or a cute boy.

(10 days late)

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Watching TV has become an addiction again

Watching TV has become an addiction again, I’m following like at least 12 different series, some already ended their run some are recent, but I just can’t stop myself. 



(12 days late)